Reality or fantasy!

Talked to an old friend today after a long time, she made me realise that my pessimistic approach to life may not be as wrong as i think it is! yes, it is not good to go against the norms of the world and develop a separate space for you and your ideologies, but somewhere in my subconscious mind I realised that I am different. I have no intention of being a leader, but at the same time I don't want to be known as a follower of ideas which i believe are unethical. Competition teaches you a lot in life and makes you overcome your flaws, however you cannot define something as competition if the sole purpose of it is to demoralise someone. I wouldn't call my self an antagonist, but I cannot support someone just on the basis of popularity or fame. My philosophy seems very ambiguous for now, but I would soon present a solution for it.

Private, conservative or Secret!

I've never been someone who has opposed change, but at the same time i would prefer to stay away from it. I do realise that it all sounds confusing and vague, but it is all a part of my quest to find myself..where do I fit? is a question that i have asked myself many times and have constantly failed to find the answer. The title of my blog are three words which can pretty much define my life, in very different ways ofcourse! I've always been known as a person who can manipulate a situation very quickly and someone who is very confident in confronting people. I would call this as my defence mechanism. At certain times I have tried to stay of reality as much as I can, so i can enjoy moments of bliss. This does not suggest that my life is a struggle, I am very happy and could not thank GOD more, but i have realised that I am different. I have been two faced all my life, now in a deceptive way, I would never do that, but in a way where i could have the comfort of living my life they way I want, While living upto everyone else's expectation. My greatest desire is to have a peaceful life, which I can enjoy with my loved one's without having to answer anyone else. After all, it is above all by the imagination that we achieve perception and compassion and hope.

Satisfied!?

My Grandmother is in england, and i am in milton keynes to spend sometime with her and the rest of the family. I was sitting today by myself thinking about life, which is not something unusual for me. I have a habit of thinking about different things related to my life and how if they were not there, my life could have been very different. Thinking about everything i realised that, i personally don't thank God for what i have i always fine some excuse by which i can prove that my life is not perfect. Why is that! I have a perfect family Mashallah, i eat more than the usual 2 times a day, i have been given the opportunity to chase my dream by studying in one of the best university. Is it because of human nature or do i have to fill this void by striving even harder. This is a question that i can't answer right now. maybe I am waiting for an experience which would give me my answer or something else, I would probably just have to wait for it. one thing i know is that, this feeling inside me cannot be defined as greed. To be honest, even though all this still seems very vague I think i want to give more to life rather than take something from it. For now all I can say is that I take life as it comes and will continue to do the same in the hope that one day I will find my answer and it will be close to what i expect it to be.

P.S I know I make some grammar mistakes, this is mainly because of the lack of time!

Drifting Away!!

I sometime's feel that we as humans are the most selfish race on this planet. All we really care about is ourself, we show that we really care abut something but inside us its just another way making ourself look good. for example before i came to england, i prayed every night telling ALLAH how much england is important for me and that i would pray everyday if i get the opportunity of studying here! What happened? nothing...all i am left with is a feeling of shame and disgust all my promises have changed into lies. I would be a stupid if i consider these lies as something common, because lying to GOD is like lying to yourself and yes i may say that i have realised how wrong was and from this day onwards i would stand up to my commitment and do as i said. What i have learnt from being independent is to prove yourself, to yourself. What i mean to say is that enough of the look at me i am so nice bullshit!! Someone yesterday told me that if  stand up to your beliefs even your enemies would respect you for that. I consider that to be absolutely true. Why do i desire the best life when i myself don't strive to achieve it. There is a famous quote which says that 'Promises are like babies:  easy to make, hard to deliver.' i'm in the race to prove that its wrong. I will try to make sure that i stand for what i believe in and if i have to be selfish, Than i would be selfish regarding the promises i make. from now on I will try to make one person say, that Asher is a man of his word!

commitment!?!

Even though there aren't a lot of people who read my blog,in fact i'm sure no one will even realise that i have written something new until i tell it to them,I myself feel as i am cheating myself.I felt so comfortable while writing my blogs and always felt as i have achieved something new. My life definitely has changed in the past month i have moved on from being a completely dependent guy who lived with his parents,to a very self dependent guy who moved to another country in order to peruse his dream of getting good education. I wouldn't lie before coming to the UNITED KINGDOM i always took it as something that everyone does and didn't consider it as something that would change my life so much! i have seen a major difference in my life where in Pakistan i used to say that i'm very busy,over here i actually am. Life definitely runs two steps ahead of you and trust me if you are not used to this,its very hard to catch it. I have lived a life where i had my own car,my own cook and driver even a house where i lived alone,but to be honest i have never felt so responsible in my life. I feel much more active there I have this burning desire inside me to explore something new to achieve something much higher than my capabilities . Yes,i do miss my home a lot there hasn't been a single day when i didn't sit at the corner of my room and smile on the wonderful things i have experienced with friends and family.but,I know that this is what i chose,this is what i want the only person who would benefit from all of this is me! and i have to prove it. one more thing that i have realised here is that i have a very diversified personality i can be one or even ten persons at the same time. I know I sound like a lunatic but its true. even though i do get along with everyone i haven't been able to find really good friends i do respect everyone and maybe its my fault maybe i have given them the wrong vibe,maybe i am not good enough,or maybe i am used to the pakistani friendship where if someone calls you a friend they mean it. It would be wrong if i say much because,i am still like a newborn who is learning the different rituals of the world. I know this blog was a little personal will try to touch the different aspects of life and give my opinion on them. and, everyone who is reading this. I Love You guys it just took me sometime to realise it!

Where is the love??

I'm aware of the fact that I'm still very new to the blog world,and I've already started to take breaks. Actually I have decided that I would be blogging two times a week from now on so I can some up with new topics,and it would also give me the time to research on that particular subject.
Even though I'm a big fan of black eyed peas and there song 'where is the love' I'm afraid that I wouldn't be talking about that. Haha!! After that bad joke I would like to come back on the topic. Today's issue is something I've experienced very often. My mother tells me how she and all her family members,even the extended family would go everywhere together and used to share a lot of fun moments. If we think logically we can understand that it is really true and not something made up by her. Have you ever noticed how our uncle and aunts are so happy when they meet each other and they really like spending time with each other,and would also call each other after short intervals. I'm afraid today's generation doesn't fall in the same line. We are always trying to find a way out when it comes to meeting relatives,or anyone else for that matter. The main reason for this is 'class conflict' many of you may not agree to what I've said,but alas its true the youth wouldn't want to meet anyone who is below there status. They,for some very stupid reason feel embarrassed. Such things should be unacceptable by the parents but,they also don't want to teach their child.
Another thing that I hate these days is when someone tries to push you to a limit where you would burst with anger,and than they would pretend as if they have nothing to do with it. My mind fails to understand,that why people tend to do such things. It may show a bad image of the other person for a short period of time, but eventually people will be aware of the reality. Not only will you loose a friend,but it will ruin the most precious treasure you have got,your respect.
Don't expect to get anything,before you learn the art of giving. I hope this helps us in a positive way and if we manage to change these few things we will see a big difference in our personality. I'll keep on writing on such social issues,even if I don't get recognition.

7th january, its about time!!

I would began by saying thankyou to my mother,even though she doesn't have great knowledge about the blogs I am writing but she still has been someone who has always pushed me,so that I can really find my potential. And same is the case here she has been backing me to write more and have also been giving me good ideas on which I could debate and ofcourse,by researching on that particular topic it would also help me enhance my knowledge.
Today's topic is something on which I have bin wanting to talk about for a long time. Yes,I know that it sounds rude but as I will talk about it,my idea will become more clear to you. what is the first thought that comes to your mind when I say the word 'girl' I'm sure many of you go gaga in yourself even if you don't show it,and its really nothing to be astonished about. Attracted towards the opposite sex is quiet normal and,its always the main topic in any teenage group. So,am I writing this blog telling you about how boys are attracted to girls?!? Haha NO!! My point is that there should be a certain limit to such things especially in the kind of society we are living in. It is an undeniable fact that whatever we do we in some way or the other would be thinking about girls. The problem that comes here is that all this fuss leads us to being more desperate(yes,its the honest truth). and what happens next is something we don't want,we seem to lose chivalry. As soon as the battle of getting more girl friends start we start taking them as granted and would adopt unacceptable manners in order to get them. Another thing that I came across is that if,only once you show interest it seems that you're bound forever. That is the only thing that people will talk about. And if somehow a girl is not interested in a relationship,MAN!! She will be disgraced in front of everyone all her life.
the subject that I'm trying to bring forward right now is that,guys please gone are the days when dating 5 girls was cool. Please,try to be chival. 'Give respect and get respect' its that easy. And if any of your friend or you yourself are interested in sports,business,studies other than girls. Its better to present yourself as someone you are,than act as someone you're not. I really think that this is becoming a more serious issue of the modern era and we should understand its sensitivity before its to late.
I will keep updating with much more issues like these even if I don't get recognition.

A few people have been very generous to read my blogs,and have also been kind enough by responding with there comments on twitter. One thing that is similar between all three respondents is that they've told me that my writing have been of very patriotic nature.because,of no apparent reason I was filled with mixed emotions with these comments. There was a side of me which made me overjoy but,there was also another part which made me think if I am being bias. Have I established a mind set which is forcing me to think against,what is believed to be right in the mind of others!!
I would only get my answer as I would progress with my writing and understand my ability of judging things,because its me against myself here. Neither is there any pressure nor any help. I would also like to clear that,the so called genre of my blogs is not politics or religion. It includes everything,that I find interesting or find the need to talk about. This brings us to today's topic 'Motivation' I got this idea from an incident that occurred with me yesterday night. Someone told me that. Its wrong to think high and its not possible to achieve success if you have high aims,and u think big all the time. As much as I respect that individual and have a complete understanding of his thoughts. I would beg to differ here. I honestly think that GOD almighty has made us the best creature on the planet for a reason. He has given us the skills and the vision to achieve what we desire. Yes,planning high without a vision and proper skills is wrong and there is high chance that by doing so you would end up in the land of no where. But if you really feel that you are born to do something good and have the potential to change the world. It might just happen. But,you also have to remember that honesty is the best policy. Something accomplished by the wrong means would never last. Life is actually shorter than we expect it to be and even if you're father is a millionaire but,his money doesn't bring satisfaction to you. You're better off without it. And if people tell you that doing something you like wouldn't help you spend a good life. Trust me they themselves are people who have failed miserably by pressure laid upon them by others. Ask yourself and Allah almighty to teach you what is right and you(GOD willing) would be on the road of success in no time.
I will see you tomorrow with another topic and,give my views on it even,if I don't get recognition

5th jan.celebration or aftermath??

I rather enjoyed writing my blog yesterday and thought of making it a habit. I know its highly possible that it wouldn't go very famous but,it would definitely help to brush up my writing skills and give me the freedom of saying things out loud.
Yesterday I talked about the death of Mr Salman Taseer and further stated that everything that happened want right. What I found out today when I woke up is that many people have not agreed with my statement (not on a direct level of course). I saw a very catastrophic scenario on the television today,where people seemed to have enjoying themself,and it seemed as if it were a proud moment for the whole nation.
This made me question myself. Am I wrong or am I right?? Are my thoughts to liberal compared to the more fundamentalist people out there. Than I thought no,even though I'm just a 20 year old with much less experience but,I'm a good judge of things. What happened was unacceptable,today and to the time this world exists. I myself am a proud pakistani and a very very proud muslim. But,can't tolerate such things which are showing a wrong image of how we spend our lives. The notable things here is that its not about Salman taseer anymore. Its about how we see each other. If we keep living like this soon,there will be a time when our comfort zone will be shattered and we would spending a life full of sorrows and disgust. We will be prisoners in our own home. I would like to quote a very beautiful incident of our beloved Hazrat Muhammad P.B.U.H..once our prophet P.B.U.H saw a few people standing outside the mosque and it seemed as they were very worried. Our Prophet P.B.U.H asked them if everything was ok. They replied by saying that,we r christians and cannot find a place to worship. The Prophet P.B.U.H instantly called them in and told them to worship in the mosque. This is a great example of the preaching of islam. It is a true religion of peace and promotes love and brotherhood in the whole of humanity
It would be a moment of great pleasure for me and many around when we would see a world full of love. We all have tried spreading hate in one way and the other and have also bared the consequences. Its about time we lend a hand to the needy and stand for what's right..as I said I will keep saying what I feel is right even if I don't receive recognition.

4th jan,another revolutionary day.

Before I start writing, I would like to make a few things clear. My blogs would be based on my perception of the world around us. It is possible that many of you would differ from my perspective but, that’s they way it works right!?!..This is my first attempt on blogging and i would expect you guys to read it with the same love, that I've written it with. Now coming back to the topic, many of you must be thinking that why i chose to write, another revolutionary day. Isn't revolution something that happens only once in a very long time, how can we make it a day to day thing. I would like to say that,in Pakistan we can. having said that,I would also like to state that I love Pakistan and can be called a true nationalist. but,there are certain things which make me worried and astonished at the same time. Now a politician is someone who represents a nation and to whom many of us look up-to. but alas, that scenario begs to differ in our country..over here a politician only represents its party may it be PPP,PML-N,PML-Q and many others like these..this brings us to todays topic...what happened today? why are we calling 4th jan 2011 a revolutionary day? as many of u know must have known by now the governor of Punjab Mr Salman taseer died today...a courageous man ,a strong politician and a powerful business man. Shot 26 times because, he thought that he had freedom of expression. Not only did the man serve the country but,was also one of the highest tax payer,one of the very few leaders who had complete knowledge about our economy and they way it could be fixed.. I've heard several statements which talk about the investigations that are being held regarding his death. but,I also heard the same statements at the time of benazir bhutto's assassination  and the immense suicide bombings which killed countless people..what have bin done about it!?..NOTHING!!...there is a high chance that no one will take a look at this blog. but, if any of you do please build the courage to question yourself too..we have had our experiences and we know that pointing a finger at someone,wouldn't solve our problems. Its the time to question ourself..r we right? casting your vote doesn't mean that you have played your part in serving your country...its time to get up and stand for what u believe in...i will keep on writing my blogs. even, if I don't get my recognition.