Drifting Away!!

I sometime's feel that we as humans are the most selfish race on this planet. All we really care about is ourself, we show that we really care abut something but inside us its just another way making ourself look good. for example before i came to england, i prayed every night telling ALLAH how much england is important for me and that i would pray everyday if i get the opportunity of studying here! What happened? nothing...all i am left with is a feeling of shame and disgust all my promises have changed into lies. I would be a stupid if i consider these lies as something common, because lying to GOD is like lying to yourself and yes i may say that i have realised how wrong was and from this day onwards i would stand up to my commitment and do as i said. What i have learnt from being independent is to prove yourself, to yourself. What i mean to say is that enough of the look at me i am so nice bullshit!! Someone yesterday told me that if  stand up to your beliefs even your enemies would respect you for that. I consider that to be absolutely true. Why do i desire the best life when i myself don't strive to achieve it. There is a famous quote which says that 'Promises are like babies:  easy to make, hard to deliver.' i'm in the race to prove that its wrong. I will try to make sure that i stand for what i believe in and if i have to be selfish, Than i would be selfish regarding the promises i make. from now on I will try to make one person say, that Asher is a man of his word!