Restless!

Have been in a state of restlessness recently. I have somehow started to deviate from my responsibilities. I wouldn't say that I am wasting my time or anything, but i have repeatedly failed in completing my recent tasks. I would not satisfy myself by blaming all this on to others, I believe that it is absolutely my fault and I have managed to have the confidence and guts to stand up to it. Maybe the reason to my restlessness is that i have changed my personality to a great extent, unwillingly of course. Only recently have I understood, that what I thought of as a cultural change was actually a BIG TRANSITION taking place in my life. Yes i have managed to become more confident and more aware about my surroundings, but at the same time I have also become mischievous. I have somehow learned to get away from mistakes and agreeing to the fact that what I did was the right thing to do. I completely understand that such actions could have some serious reprecussions in the future, but for a while i am willing to let go. This could be because of the fact that these years could be the last years of my lif when i could have a life of freedom and make decisions which wouldn't really effect anyone other than myself. I don't want anyone to misconceive my statement, and assume that this will lead to a change in my personality. I guess like everyone, I want to get away from the real world for a while and live life a little. Its not too late until reality knocks on my door and wakes me up from my dream.