commitment!?!

Even though there aren't a lot of people who read my blog,in fact i'm sure no one will even realise that i have written something new until i tell it to them,I myself feel as i am cheating myself.I felt so comfortable while writing my blogs and always felt as i have achieved something new. My life definitely has changed in the past month i have moved on from being a completely dependent guy who lived with his parents,to a very self dependent guy who moved to another country in order to peruse his dream of getting good education. I wouldn't lie before coming to the UNITED KINGDOM i always took it as something that everyone does and didn't consider it as something that would change my life so much! i have seen a major difference in my life where in Pakistan i used to say that i'm very busy,over here i actually am. Life definitely runs two steps ahead of you and trust me if you are not used to this,its very hard to catch it. I have lived a life where i had my own car,my own cook and driver even a house where i lived alone,but to be honest i have never felt so responsible in my life. I feel much more active there I have this burning desire inside me to explore something new to achieve something much higher than my capabilities . Yes,i do miss my home a lot there hasn't been a single day when i didn't sit at the corner of my room and smile on the wonderful things i have experienced with friends and family.but,I know that this is what i chose,this is what i want the only person who would benefit from all of this is me! and i have to prove it. one more thing that i have realised here is that i have a very diversified personality i can be one or even ten persons at the same time. I know I sound like a lunatic but its true. even though i do get along with everyone i haven't been able to find really good friends i do respect everyone and maybe its my fault maybe i have given them the wrong vibe,maybe i am not good enough,or maybe i am used to the pakistani friendship where if someone calls you a friend they mean it. It would be wrong if i say much because,i am still like a newborn who is learning the different rituals of the world. I know this blog was a little personal will try to touch the different aspects of life and give my opinion on them. and, everyone who is reading this. I Love You guys it just took me sometime to realise it!