I am not someone who discusses his life very much, but Kanye west is my favourite artist. Yes, by favourite I mean that I favour him over other artists, particularly musicians who pretend to represent a culture or an ideology but would be the first to turn their backs, when the going gets tough. Now there are two reasons why you should care. Firstly, I have Black skinhead on loud while I'm writing this, hence the constant aggression and also because Kanye has managed to achieve at a world stage, which resides in all of our guilty pleasures, attract haters. 

Why do I support a narcissistic, selfish, unthankful human being who never fails to complain about his surroundings? Because I too believe that personal satisfaction is as incremental to personal growth as oxygen is to breathing. No doubt, that we only get what we deserve and success in any sphere of life is related to opportunity and fate, but it's not a sin to want better, or to believe in yourself. A common misconception about wealthy who desire more is that they are insensitive to their surroundings, but even being young and someone who does not have much money at his disposal I completely believe that passion or ambition cannot be monetised, your dreams are separate are from your wealth. How many wealthy people in Pakistan, are actually intellectuals, inventors or creators? I completely agree that our 9-5 should consist of work that we need to do in order to survive, but it certainly does not mean that that is out only space to let out our creativity and to be boxed down as someone who can only do that. I'm a working man, and I can assure like many other men that I can do better, but our life is not always on our hand unfortunately, we have external forces who persistently control our life one way or the other. 

I guess what I'm trying to say is that we are no one to judge someone's thought or ideologies, because deep down in our. Fixed patterned life there is always something different that we would have what'd to do, or there are things we would wanted to have if we were given the opportunity. Like racism, sexism, classism I'm coining a new term called opportunism, which means that all of us deserve an opportunity to speak our heart out and be respected for what we believe in and be supported through it not necessarily and action, but even by acknowledgement of ones believes and hopes. Evolution is possible through growth and ideas, and someone of us just need a pat on the shoulder to change the world. So next time you hear kanye rant, tell him that he can actually, do it give him that opportunity let him design and act and sign and produce and whatever, and if he fails than quite simply, he'll know! 

If your have brothers, sisters, friends who think differently than have the decency to at least look at things from their perspective and try to support them through their endeavours, because every time they fail, they'll be one step close to success. And next time someone tells u that you're gonna be finished or destroyed, than just remember life is too short, none of it is gonna last anyway! 

Keep praying

Keep believing 

Keep loving

I have so much anger inside me its worrying, however my blog is completely unrelated. Enjoy

Honestly, when did we move from sensible and factual journalism towards towards baseless counter narratives against anyone speaking how they feel. To avoid confusion I'm speaking about Shahid Afridi's constant humiliation in Pakistan media, for speaking in favour of the love he receives in India. I myself have tremendous resentments towards him, for basically being the most useless member of our squad 90% of the time. but, I think what he said should first be interpreted by his intention and then we can comment on it. you don't have to be Einstein to know the treatment celebrities receive in India, and the god like association towards them. None of us are any close to his stardom to realise the difference he feels between both nations. Plus, him saying that he gets love in India, doesn't necessarily equate to him having a rift against Pakistan. Think about it, that kind of mentality makes zero sense.

 I'm definitely not trying to defend or promote India as well. In fact, I feel both nations are first to jump to conclusions, especially when it comes to their own people. How many times have we burnt our cricketers photos, only to lift them on our shoulders sometime later. Can we all at least try to analyse the situation at hand before giving a bizarre verdict towards it. situation analysis applies on literally every notion of our life, and is something we need to work quite a bit on.

Let's not all be huge drama queens for one day and see how that works out.
Thank you. 

B+

I've decided to completely let go of any negativity surrounding my life, or at least hope to do so. If the soul purpose of our adversaries is to let us down and demoralise our efforts, than it only makes sense not to take it upon ourselves. stressing about someones bad intention, is like giving someone credit for not even doing anything. Any positive person would tell you that we first and foremost not hold opinions about anyone. There have been several incidences when i have formed irrational judgements about others, without investigating a credible source for my claim. Now i'm certainly not saying that I did it out of habit, but is a natural occurrence to form judgements, if the other person holds different views in life. I understand that certain ideologies come only with maturity and experience, but alas, it is only natural for human to attain self gratification through someones sorrow. Now i know, that it sounds more tense than it is, and we probably cohabitate more comfortably than I'm portraying, but as I've said before that i speak more about the inner feelings of a person than what it shows from the outside. As cynical as I might sound Gender, Social and probably the most relevant in our times, Status Segregation (Classism) exists more than ever today. I might be the only one, but i genuinely feel, that people have only become more smarter in hiding their biases towards others, to form a pretence of showing equality for all. Bullying has gone from High schools to whole countries bullying other nations and to me it all goes back to other people deciding our fate and we caring too much about it.

In our beautiful country Pakistan for example, people embarrassment towards their social perception around the world, and their lack of effort to do something about it is worrisome. I'd be a millionaire if i could get a dollar for every time a fellow countryman felt embarrassed or at least tried to defend themselves while giving their introduction as a Pakistani to a foreign national. My point is why can't we expect those foreign nationals to be embarrassed of what they did to our country and how there foreign policy is more dangerous than whatever is going in our country. Now maybe i don't make sense, but i would genuinely love it if we show the same concern towards our own people, if we see one of our own and treat them special and not degrade them, because we assume that they are below us. I would love to see the day when we would stop comparing every Pakistani flaw with american strength. If all of us only become the change, even selfishly, we would create a society that is beneficial for all of us. I believe that we all our talented in one way or the other, and the day we can remove this negativity from within and the people that surround us, we will be a happy nation that will flourish in every field of this world. All we need is love, positivity, good energy, happiness and respect to truly make it the world we all deserve. 

P.s I am not anti America, Anti Globalisation or Anti anything, In fact I love every place I have ever visited and all the cultures I have familiarised with. my only argument is that people from all walks of live deserve the same opportunities, free from any hatred, judgement, segregation towards them. 

Heal the world.

Reflecting back on my previous work, I realised how much us humans are capable of evolving over time. What we believe is our best is mostly only temporary. Today i see a certain sense of discreet humbleness present wishing myself, one that only comes with experience and maturity. Did I imagine myself to be the person I am today, i don't know! i certainly did however, hope that i can be proud of my achievements. What achievements do i speak about though? i'm Still

• Partially unemployed (long story)
• live with my parents (love it)
• unmarried
• nearly broke for my fifth consecutive year (spare change?)
• i did shave my head though because thats pretty much the only entertaining thing I could do with my life right now

Anyway, my point is (pun intended) These are not necessarily the only true parameters of success, and self development. I have come to realise, that our true achievement is to become of use. to be a person, who can help others, support their family and friends, and never judge anyone on their lows, because like our bests, our worsts are also only temporary. it break my heart to say that in my society, only people of stature survive in the clan and these insecurities have destroyed my surroundings. people would generally, speak ill of others than share knowledge, only because sharing information is deemed useless and unimportant. why you ask? because its not your line of work. REMEMBER! you may only talk about ships, if you're a captain, and only speak about newer innovations only if you must, because quite frankly no ones listening. I might be a bit personal here, but i'm genuinely concerned about the mentality thats taking over our youth. why are we under this constant pressure of being demonised by others. All we need is to trust ourself and the GOD that created us, thats it! Life is all about being in a constant battle with yourself, to be the best version of YOU! let no one decide that for you, but you. 

how many times have we been told, that you're not the same, and you've changed? and how many times out of that were people saying it in a positive way? not many I imagine. people who are honest to you and themselves would never demoralise or sabotage your image, wishing your own eyes or amongst others. We were created to be companions not enemies of others, No football team can have 11 attackers, we all need to play our position and be comfortable within our own skin. Lastly, think of the 5 times you were the happiest! now try to relate those with these 5 emotions : Hate, Anger, Selfishness, Greed, Jealousy. Couldn't do it? Didn't think so.


P.S I specifically named by blog NOW and THEN, so we can be satisfied about how far we came!

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A relative of mine lost his battle against depression today. All our life we believe that, only diseases like cancer, HIV and TB become causes of slow and painful deaths and treat some very major illnesses, as phases and temporary. Being someone who has experienced depression myself and around me for most of my life, I can assure you that it's nothing short of having a battle against the Unknown, something you can't see but only feel. In this combat, the victorious one is who manages to escape, rather than defeat it's enemy. Unlike cancer however, this can only be overcome collectively rather then the struggle of ones self.

 People going through depression are not attention seekers, selfish, or self involved. In fact, they are always looking for moral support from friends and family. When we stroll someone whose disabled, we don't do them a favour, but are just courteous. In the same way helping your friend or family in their phase of depression, is your moral obligation and nothing which should seem like a task. Because, somewhere we might all be responsible for the negativities surrounding their life, and only we are the ones that can help. We don't always necessarily have to see someone's physical disability to understand the gravity of the situation. It most matters when you can help your loved one see the Unknown and help them escape it.

V for Pakistan

One of life's biggest riddles is understanding confidence, it's like herbs and spices in our food, too much and you've spoiled it, a little too less and its bland. Successfully translating your words into words is confidence, but wait isn't that more close to arrogance, and we all know that no person should be allowed to be arrogant. It's probably stating your achievements, nah that's arrogance too. How about, describing your vision and how you've come up with something no one else did, well that's simply unrealistic. Basically, we are left with a dilemma, does socially acceptable confidence even exist, or is it just something our parents have been infusing in us us so we wouldn't kill ourselves. For all the optimists out there, congratulations, it actually exists. 

Not however, in the way we portray it. The most raw form of confidence is undoubtedly self confidence, which a great majority of us do not have. No doubt, that pakistan has been created in the wake of freedom and civil rights, so it's only fair and understandable if a certain slave mentality still exists within us. Our forefathers broke the shackles, but we didn't completely managed to break free from many of our inferiorities. English is still widely associated to having a higher intellect(how ironic of me) and that Paul smith peshawri chappal, is to be fair, much more desirable than our locally made identical sandal, so what if it costs a fraction, it's not imported. Witnessing your hard earned money being silently drained somewhere in the Swiss Alps sets for the perfect getaway, the Facebook tags are completely worth it, trust me. Plus, swiftly replacing Sunday's halwa puri with waffles and pancakes sounds like such a good idea. Why really should we consider that local burger joint, when BK has just opened up, tbh we all have been craving a bite of that since we were born. Aaah, is isn't it just great giving other nations the ego boost they need, such a noble thing to do. Pakistan anyway is never gonna change. Why care, when you've got a flat in Dubai that oversees man made islands, Gods beauty is so overrated. Enough of the sarcastic remarks, my point is that we need to be proud of our country before we can expect something from it. 

Land on its own is worthless if it's not populated by humans. We are the nation, we are Pakistan, if we fail to cherish the achievements and struggle by our very own country and fellow countrymen they we fail as a nation. Our homeland is no different than our home if all members of the family are not happy, than its not home its a hostel or a hotel, anywhere really where one person does not care about the other. Let's support our corporations and believe that they can be even bigger than these multinationals. Let's for once inject confidence in our people rather than demoralising them for not being too foreign. Let's all be paindoo, and make that cool. The day all of us build the capacity to tell someone that they have the best potential being themselves and help them learn new things rather than imposing ideologies on them, will be the day we will truly be a great nation, free from inequalities, differences and most importantly inferiority. No person has to believe that he is less capable than someone else, because it's truly the saddest moment when someone's luck overshadows someone else's misfortune. 

First World Freedom!

Unless you have been living under a rock for the past few days, same sex marriage has now been legalised in the US fetching a set of mixed emotions from all spheres of the world. Personally, I don't know what to feel on the coming out of this news (pun intended) my moral and religious values strictly advise me not to feel positive towards it, but at the same time I don't feel negative about it. This is largely because my own set of beliefs do not rely upon institutional legitimacy. 

An outcry over this ruling by many conservatives and opposers seems to be bit pointless as, as it suggests that homosexuality is the birth of a country's legal status towards it. At most, legalising it removes fear in the hearts of a same sex couple. However, it certainly does not take away the various taboos formed in our society or make them more accepted in our life's. If this was the case than all African Americans would have the same opportunities as Caucasian Americans, and all hijab wearing muslim women would be treated as equally as other women, but Alas this is not the case. We humans fail to realise that biases and opinions of others are not formed by legitimacy, but through experience and ones perception. 

Yes, a man kissing another one, is not a sight I would want to see, but that's not the reason why I have been against same sex marriage. Every person deserves equality, no doubt, but it is the very nature of homosexuality that I disagree with. Firstly, it does not contribute to the evolution of life, by not contributing towards childbirth, and that is something to be worried about even by same sex couples. Plus, science has proved that homosexuality is not something that's innate, sorry lady gaga, it is however, formed through different experinces we go through in our life. If any one of us is truly against this, than we have to create awareness about the very cause of this movement and help people find better alternatives. For those, who feel that this is the perfect way to life and being gay is what gives them most satisfaction than let it be, because let there be no compulsion in religion. To truly create a balance in this world we have to past this an eye for eye mentality and focus more on the very root causes of these social changes. 

In a world with absolute freedom, incest, underage sex and drug abuse would probably have been legal, but in a world with different cultures and social values a line needs to be drawn. Unfortunately, humans have been too busy rejecting each other's ideology rather than understand it, and finding middle ground. Freedom to me is the most misinterpreted word, because as far as I am concerned its foundation was laid upon peace and harmony amongst different individuals of the society. Unfortunately however, it is being taken by oppression and force. If we are talking about freedom on world stage, than I demand freedom for the people of Palestine, for the Muslims in Burma, all African Americans facing oppression and injustice and all races and societies being labeled as lesser than other. Verily, these social issues are much more viable and authentic than same sex marriage.